Guess What???!!!!!

Yep, I'm sure you guessed...we are finally making the announcement that baby number five is officially on it's way!!! And yes, it was planned! haha!  Many of you know that I've been struggling for quite some now as to if we were done or not having kids.  Ben was 100% for sure yes we are done...me on the other hand always knew I wanted a big family, always said I wanted 5 kids, and really had a hard time knowing that chapter of my life would be done forever.  I would try and convince myself that yes, we are done. I have 4 kids 7 and under, am running around like a crazy person some days, and with the husband's job plus church calling, it can get overwhelming around the Fullmer household. So yes, we were done.  Then by the next day I would change my mind watching my little girl walk to the bus giggling with her friends, hold my sleeping baby and think "is this really it?", or listen to my funny little 3 year old tell me how much he loved me and how pretty I was for the 15th time that day.  Even listening to my sensitive little 5 year old cry over loosing his Mario Cart game.  I would find myself counting my kidos and find myself feeling like I was missing someone and catch myself thinking that yes, it's going to be hard for the next 5 years, but what about in the next ten when they all get a little older.  Will I regret it and wish I would have had just one more.   It was constantly on my mind, and I knew that was my answer.  Everyone kept saying "you know when you're done."  So how come I didn't know? How come this was so hard for me?  How can some people be fine having one kid and I can't be content with my four I have?? I wanted to be content, I wanted to have that feeling like I was done, but I wasn't feeling that way.  Alot of what was holding me back, and this sounds so dumb, but knowing that there were some people out there that would just think I was a crazy Mormon mom having all of these kids that I wouldn't give my time and attention to..just having babies left and right because that's what we do!!  Nope, not the case here, I really started to feel like there was another little babe up there needing to come to my family and that was what I based my decision off of.  Of course my husband being the business man he is was only seeing the numbers for quite some time.  Freaking out about the financial side of it, wondering how we were going to afford all these teenagers, activities, schooling, and these many boys in a row.. hopefully serving missions.  It would mean a bigger house, a bigger car, etc.. the list goes on and on.  I completely agreed with him and those things stressed me out too..but I see people do it all of the time, and knew that somehow it would all work out.  SOO, after all of that of course my husband gave in and agreed that if I was feeling that strongly about it that we obviously weren't done so that we should start trying to have another.  Let's just say that it happened VERY fast (even though I get pregnant super easy anyway) and that proves to me even more that it was meant to be.

SOOO, due date: November 21st. (yes the same week as my anniversary, birthday, and Thanksgiving so I'm hoping I go early or the doc induces me a week early like he has before.) which makes me 10 weeks pregnant...and I'm SOOOOO happy I'm almost done with the first trimester.  This has probably been the worst so far.  Throwing up a few times a day, and the tiredness is unbelievable.  I know that it's probably because I have 4 other kids to take of this time, and that I'm another year older!  I'm always super anemic when I'm pregnant to so my iron always drops way down which contributes to that as well.  Of course I'm secretly hoping for another girl LOL..coming from a family of all girls I would LOVE Brooklyn to have a sister...but I'm going into knowing that it's probably a boy and if it's a girl I will be pleasantly suprprised! I love being a mommy of boys and I also love the fact that Boroklyn could possibly be my only girl and that we would get to be the only girls doing all of the fun girl stuff together...so either way I'm good!  Right now we are just praying for healthy!!

I still can't believe that I'm in this phase of my life already...my last pregnancy, my last little baby, actually onto the next phase of just raising and enjoying my family.  I remember when my aunts and uncles were my age having kids and thinking that was forever away for me...not so much! LOL!  Life flys by.  It feels like yesterday some days when I talk to my little sister who is a senior in high school right now..I swear I was just there.  My parents are always saying to me and my sisters how they can't believe how fast we grew up, or reminding me in the stressful moments of life to enjoy this stage because even though it can be overwhelming and stressful...it goes by so fast.  I believe that more then ever right now and am really trying to embrace every moment. Being a wife and a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I can't being to thank my other half for the amazing, patient, kind, loving, hilarious, fun, service oriented (the list goes on and on) of a husband and Dad he is and has been.  I couldn't do this without his love and support. (Along with our weekly date night of course...I mean, come on...those keep us sane!)

Soo, here we go. The next chapter in our life!  Baby number five, let the fun begin!  Mommy already loves you and can't wait for another Wednesday to come because that's the day we get to move up another week in your growth!  Cravings like crazy with this one!  At ten weeks I want pickles and salsa all day long...oh and oranges and gummy "anything" candy are also a must.  I'm trying to still run and work out as much as possible (hoping to be able to step that up in the next few weeks and the sickness and tiredness start to wear off, hopefully!) Of course I feel like everything is already starting to turn to mush.  I swear once you see that positive sign every ounce of muscle or toneness that you once had disinegrates.  BUT, of course I have already looked up marathons for the upcoming year and that will come soon enough to motivate me and FINALLY be able to get back in shape knowing I'm done with the pregnancy stage!  As for now I'm just going to enjoy my last pregnancy, be tired when I want to be tired, eat what I want to eat, (trying not to throw it all up 2 seconds later for now anyways) and go through the "nesting mode" like never before!
So baby boy or baby girl...whatever you may be..we love you and can not wait for you to join our little family. 10 weeks down...30 more to go!!
Love~
Mommy